I will find a reason

I will find a reason to worry no matter what. That has to STOP. Immediatly. I refuse to live my life in fear any longer. I have been to the best doctors and there is nothing wrong with me. General health wise at least. My gout is uncommon artheritis that will have no bearing on me living a full and happy life. I am just fine. I get colds like normal people, and stomach bugs, and yes even gout but it doesnt mean I have cancer, a failing organ, or rare disease. I am fine. I know in my heart that I will never get pregnant acting the way I do. Stress hormones are BAD. Babies don't like them. I will put more trust in God today, and everyday that passes from now on. There is plenty for me to conquer in the world and dont wanna go after it fearful. I know this problem will not go away immediatly. It will be a step by step process and I will have good days and bad days. Highs and lows. But I will do this on my own. This time I will do it right for the sake of my marriage, future children, and my own well being.

"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it" Psalms 118:24