Menu Monday

Monday- Spaghetti with Garlic Bread
Tuesday- Chicken Puffs with Macaroni and Cheese and Veggies
Wednesday- Guad (Mexican restraunt)
Thursday- Chicken and Dumpling (didnt make this last week...made chk noodle soup instead)
Friday-Leftovers

Goin to the Chapel...

and she's GONNA GET MARRIED! I am so happy for my best friend! She got engaged on Friday and I couldent be happier! So excited to be her matron of honor...

I will find a reason

I will find a reason to worry no matter what. That has to STOP. Immediatly. I refuse to live my life in fear any longer. I have been to the best doctors and there is nothing wrong with me. General health wise at least. My gout is uncommon artheritis that will have no bearing on me living a full and happy life. I am just fine. I get colds like normal people, and stomach bugs, and yes even gout but it doesnt mean I have cancer, a failing organ, or rare disease. I am fine. I know in my heart that I will never get pregnant acting the way I do. Stress hormones are BAD. Babies don't like them. I will put more trust in God today, and everyday that passes from now on. There is plenty for me to conquer in the world and dont wanna go after it fearful. I know this problem will not go away immediatly. It will be a step by step process and I will have good days and bad days. Highs and lows. But I will do this on my own. This time I will do it right for the sake of my marriage, future children, and my own well being.

"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it" Psalms 118:24

Menu Monday!

So I am trying to be more healthy and cook yummy stuff that is easier for BG to take to lunch the day after. And I am buying groceries one week at a time instead of 2 weeks at a time. Im not sure if it is better or not yet cause I just started.

Monday- Shrimp Fettucine Alfredo w/ salad aand cheesy garlic bread
Tuesday- Homemade Chicken Pot Pie
Wednesday-Grilled Cheese and Tater Tots
Thursday- Chicken and Dumplings
Friday- Leftovers

Saturday and Sunday I dont usually plan. Sometimes we go out to eat or just eat ramen or sandwiches.

Saturday

Nice relaxing day. I had lunch with a good friend and then went to see the house that Joshua and Brittany are renting. Watched my Bulldawgs and my Saints bring home victory. 1 more till Miami! WHO DAT! Decided to play some board game and drink a little wine. I also made baked potato soup. Although it wasent very soup like. More "runny mash tater" style. But it was good. Maybe add a little more milk next time and it will be better.
The first days of "Im gonna do stuff I wanna do with or without you" has begun. I bought my $67.50 Rascal Flatts ticket and I plan on going with out my husband. I begged for a week but he doesnt want to go with me. Screw it then. Im going. Period. I will also be attending church tomorrow BY MYSELF (well okay Brittany and Joshua are going) but still. Sometimes I wish he would just give in and do something because I want to do it. But thats the man I married and I will never regret that for one minute. Just learn to adjust.
I also realized tonight that a half a glass of wine actually makes me sleepy. No ready to party or loosened up like it use too. Just sleepy. I think 2010 marked the total transition to full on frontal adulthood. Dammit. I liked it better the other way around. But it has it's perks. Sex,Shoes,Friends. Adulthood isnt a total wasteland.

Still no call.

Still no call from the RE on my betas. I already know the answer. I know Im not KU. Not yet atleast. But in other unmentioned news my FINAL INTERVIEW is tonight. Please God let me get this job. I am so tired of dealership hell. Its a big office job with a shit ton of responsibility but I am ready for it. I want it. Which is probably the exact reason I wont get it. But such is life.

Am I or Am I Not?!?

So I got the good ole vag cam at 7 am this morning. Which in some cases should be outlawed. She told me my lining was thick and on the verge of pregnancy thickness. Possibly saw a sac?! Or it could just be the oncoming of a horrific AF. Hot Dog. So even though betas were not ordered she drew them anyway STAT. So I should know by the afternoon. The waiting game oh how I hate you...

So it's 2010...

So I have started a blog. Why you might ask? A-I need a outlet seeing as my anxiety has gotten the best of me and my family thinks I am going nuts. B-trying to conceive a child with the love of your life has proven to be difficult. C- okay well those are really the only 2 things I have. Im not gonna give you a long introduction. I figure if you are reading this you know my backstory.

This will be about everything. Fashion, skin care (a new found passion),work,husbands,food. Yeah a lot of food. And of course infertility. I will probably curse a lot and ramble but... Im just me.