The Needle Chronicles

Im 2 days deep in the world of infertility injectables and I think so far I have gotten the better end of the deal. BG has done wonderful and been very sweet through the entire process. It's nice for him to be involved in some way. I dont feel so...well...alone with the whole process. 1 more night for sure of Follistim and then 1 HCG trigger but I have a feeling I will need more injections before I ovulate. By the time I am done with that though I will be a pro. Right?
Im doing pretty good with all the anxiety too. Very good if I say so myself. I have had a few moments but for the most part I am doing so much better. And that my friends is the power of prayer. Give it too God and let him have it. God does not want me to fear and walk around scared to live. Enough for now :)

Injections...The New Chapter...

So I start Follistim injectables this cycle. I am good mix of excitement and nerves. I really want this to work. But as always it might not. Oh and the best part- BG giving me the shots. He did really well the other day when the nurse was teaching him. I think he will do great!
Lately my anxiety has been at a minimum. Which I am thankful for. Prayer and petition works. Everyday I face a struggle of some sort but God gets me through it.
Gonna be a busy week! Brittany and Josh are moving and we are helping!
Love!

manolo blahnik shoes

I want them. Badly.

who knew...

That you would rather have a job pushing food to ungrateful customers then a cushy desk job. So much for a easy job at a car dealership. I hate this place. Even the person that got you the job that you have been friends with turn on you. I literally put in applications at restraunts today. I mean honestly its good money and I have done it before. And if I want to have a baby i have to keep a job NO MATTER WHAT. Infertility is exspensive business.

And in other news...Betas on Thursday. Maybe baby?

I wonder if they know...

My kidneys that is. My one obsession since the gout. I wonder if they know that I constantly and obsessively worry about them. That I worry about how often I pee. And when my back hurts...forget it...im in a state of panic.
Wonderful way to get pregnant huh? I know this is a step by step process but I cant help but wonder if I am never going to be calm again. Will my anxiety ever go away?

PCOS can kiss my ASS.

Sugar this sugar that. I HAVENT HAD A EFFING SODA IN A MONTH! WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT UNIVERSE??? Dear Clomid- Thanks for making things worse. Dear Metformin- please go easy on my when I start taking you again. And thank you IRL FRIENDS for not giving a flying fuck. appreciate it.

All Clear!!

FINALLY! I got GOOD news! My HSG was great! The septum was repaired! All of it! I am so glad that I can put it past me and never ever have to worry about it again. I feel blessed today. I think things are looking up. I had a little panic this morning but nothing compared to what it has been. He saw a air bubble and I made him promise me it wasent a tumor. LOL! But I think I am finally learning a little trust. These are the best doctors in the SE, it doesnt get better than this.
I have been a bad blogger lately. I need to keep writing and keeping all the bad thoughts out of my head.
Love you all.